Alrite the 2nd of may was a bizarre day, went out with mabel in the afternoon. walked around and had a sandwhich for lunch. Then the day just went down the hill from there.Sat at paragon for a while. Agreed to act normally so that the day wouldn't go to waste. well, I gave in again. A cted like normal.But things had to get screwed up again. Kinda charged out of heeren after reading certain stuff that i'd never thought i'd have to read. Esp coming from my best friend,well something that i'd gotta except. She says its her lesson learnt.

Well , yesterday just showed that there was NOTHING learnt.nothing at all. showed how much she didn't care. went over, was on the phone most of the time. Left me in front of the tv, is that how you treat your guests? let alone your bestfriend?!

Told myself that i'd give her till 4 pm to get off . That was half an hour for her to get off the phone. at 4, i switched off the tv took my bag and left. all she did wast follow me to the door and say bye. Geez. she just let me walk out of the house . Well, i guess the phone call was more important.

This has happen one too many times and why should i tolerate it when I'm not treated like i deserve, like a bestfriend deserves.I know i deserve better treatment from you.

After all the times I've pushed the reasons aside and for given you for all the hurtful things. This is the things i get.

Alrite. I'm putting too much of how i feel here. Writing is all i have to vent. I hope you get it. Too many 2nd chances have been laid on the table for you. Don't take it for granted. Don't take me for granted. cuz if you continue, your gonna lose me.

And if you do, it'll show that you can't be bothered to even save out friendship. That's it. outtie.